כוכבים ופרברים

על אש קטנה.

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I always feel like a freak because I'm never able to move on like this (snaps fingers). People just have an affair or even entire relationships, theט break up and they forget. They move on like they've changed their brand of cereals. I feel like I'm never able to forget anyone I've been with because each person has their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship when it ends really damages me, I never fully recover. That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because.. it hurts too much. Even getting laid- I actually don't do that because I will miss the person's mundane things. Like, I'm obssessed with little things. Maybe i'm crazy.

When I was a little girl my mum told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking at chesnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk or ants crossing the road or the way a leaf casts a shadow on the tree trunk. Little things. 

I think it's the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them that move me and that I miss and will always miss. You can never replace anyone because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details. 

(מתוך "לפני השקיעה")

(גיא אמר שזה הזכיר לו אותי. אנחנו בקושי מכירים וכבר הוא קלט)

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וטל אומר לי 

את אל תהיי האש הקטנה של אף אחד

ואני אוספת לעצמי גפרורים קטנים ו

מדליקה אותם כדי להתחמם.

הם כאלה מקסימים ומיוחדים כל אחד מהם

אף פעם לא הרגשתי כאילו יש לי את הכוח לפגוע במישהו

אולי אם זה יימשך ככה

אני עוד אוכל.