Nothing good usually comes out of building shrines, tho at this time i feel compelled to build that one. Pretty much in secret, of course with the ambiguity, because it's boring otherwise...i feel a big blow coming soon if things continue that way, and so little good will come out of it...
My objectivity is skewed by access, but i'm still pretty much ignoring, only the phrasing becomes more vague. I won't understand myself in a year.
I guess in a more sane state it would worry me, they both would worry me, but i'm so mental-dead, i dont evern care. Let them try, let them both try, together and separately, i'll see how they manage to handle that case of bloody mental abuse. Maybe one of them will? Congratulations then. This is a stage when i dont actually care, and it's pretty much the end of the road.
The shrine averts my thought to a direction which isnt very good, and my vow is going to elef azazel. Neither Rainguy nor Tomi are supposed to get into that, i think. Not stfuing only brings me closer to doom, tho i'm almost too tired for fear. As i've said to Tomi, and concludes the situation pretty well, it all goes down the blade. I guess everything can be blamed on the workshop after all.
I've got my first and only positive remark of the month in yesodot class. Not that it matters much, the day sucked from pretty early.
Wish i could be with friends, but wishes and what is needed are probably the direct opposites. They hadn't done anything horrible to deserve this.
There's practically no path to take except back down into the dark.
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