The matrix has you, it has me too, i know how you feel. go to school find a job, have childrem, marry, work some more and die (not in this specific order) . do you realize, when you are sitting in your cubicle, behind your desk, and listening to things you dont want to hear, doing things you cant find any purpose in doing them, do you realise you don't have to? do you understand that you can free yourself? do what you want to do, be what you want to be? do you know that with minimum effort you can be your own lord and master. well actually you cant.... even if in this world, you choose not to do what you're told and not to act as expected of you, you will end up at the rims of society and not completely out of it. your freedom will be only relative to the captivity of others - and this is not really freedom. if you are in the same room with someone who is being tortured, and you are dead, your state will be relatively better then his wouldnt it? so now let me tell you something: if your captivity puts you in a relatively better state then my freedom puts me, the god bless you, stay imprisoned or erase yourself from this plain of existance and be one with whatever source there is. be fulfilled and complete, in your own way. remember that we are but nothing relatively to life, a blink of an eye in time and space. our suffering and glory will be forgotten and all we know will vanish from this world. remember that your foes are nothing just as you are and remind them of that. your life, wich is one second in the lifetime of the universe, should not be waster on other's ignorance and stupidity, nor it should be wasted on their will. the pattern by which we live was invented by people who died too long ago to even remember them, create a new pattern and remember only the present. Dont try to deny it : We all die in the end, and there is no Afterlife