הנה אני מביא בפניכם את חלק ב' של הפרק הזה.

הסבר קצר לפני שתמשיכו...

חדי העין שבינכם שיקראו את חלק א' שוב לפני שימשיכו ויקראו את חלק ב', ישימו לב

שנתתי שם לחלק א', "המורעל"...

במבט לאחור באמת הייתי מלא ברעל,ולא רק בכוונה של הסלנג הצבאי.

לחלק הזה, החלק השני, החלטתי לקרוא "חרטה"...

כי גם לרגש הזה יש צד וחלק ענקי בסיפור הזה.

אז הנה אני מתאר בפניכם עד כמה אני מתחרט...

ביום מן הימים אני גם אוכל לספר לכם בדיוק על מה אני מתחרט.

הקולאז'

פרולוג-חלק ב':"חרטה"

Staring at the empty page before me
All the years of wreckage running through my head
Patterns of my life I thought I don't be
Revealing hurt for shame and deep lament

Overwhelming sorrow now absorbs me
As the pen begins to trace my darkest past
Signs throughout my life that should have warned me
Of all the wrongs I've done, for which I must repent

I once thought it better to regret
Things that I have done, then haven't

Sometimes you've got to be wrong
Learn the hard way
Sometimes you've got to be strong
When you think it's too late

Staring at the finished page before me
All the damage now so clear and evident
Thinking 'bout the dreaded task in store for me
A bitter fear at the thought of my amends

Hoping that the step will help restore me
To face my past and ask for forgiveness
Cleaning up my dirty side of this unswept street
Could this be the beginning of the end

I once thought it better to regret
Things that I have done, then haven't

Sometimes you've got to be wrong
Learn the hard way

Just when you're through hanging on
You're saved

Until that moment I've never felt like I've failed at anything

And now I feel like I failed her, and failed myself

It's still really hard to deal with

I want to thank you for helping me to see…

And to tell you how regretful I am that it has hurt you

…I was too scared to face it

It's one of the biggest regrets of my life

I'm here to confess with you that what I did was wrong

I wanted to apologize to anyone that I've upset or offended

It still haunts me

I'm sorry for what I did back then, I was a different person

I wish it wouldn't have happened

The truth is the truth

And all you can do is live with it

Repentance - Dream Theater

How can you ever sleep a wink at night

Pretending that everything's alright?

This is a regret that you make…

Mistakes like this you won't make…

It's NOT okay….

Goddamn regrets!

Don't deny it…

What did I do?!

Honor Thy Father - Dream Theater