"It's not easy being in a relationship. Much less, to truely know the other one and accept them as they are, with all their flaws and baggage.

Jack confessed to me his fear of being rejected if I truely knew him, if he showd himself totally bare to me. Jack realized after two years of being with me that he didn't know me at all, nor did I know him. And to truely love each otherת we needed to know the truth about each other. Even if it's not so easy to take. So I told him the truth, which was that I never cheated on him. And I also told him that I've just seen Matiu that afternoon. He did not get mad at me because nothing had happened, of course. I confessed to Jack that the toughest thing for me was to decide to be with someone for good. The idea that this is it, this is the man I'm going to spend the rest of my life with, to decide that I will make the effort to stay and work things out and not run off the minute there's a problem is very dificult for me. I told him I could not be for just one man for the rest of my life. It was a lie, but I said it anyway.

He asked me if I thought I was a squirrel, collecting men like nuts to pull away for cold winter. I thought it was quite funny.. Then he said something that hurt my feelings. The tone changed drastically, then I misunderstood what he was saying, I thought he ment he didn't love me anymore and that he wanted to break up.

It always fascinates me how people go from loving you madly, to nothing at all

Nothing.

It hurts so much. 

When I feel someone is going to leave me I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is, one more one less. Another waste of love story. I realy loved this one..

When I think that it's over, that I'll never see him again like this.. well yeah I'll bump into him, will meet our new boyfriend or girlfriend and act as if we had never been together. Then we'll slowly think of each other less and less, until we forget each other completely. Almost. 

Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drink up, fool around. Meet one guy. then another, fuck around to forget the one and only. Then after a few monthes of total emptiness, start again to look for true love. Desperetely look everywhere and after two years of loneliness - meet a new love and swear it is the one. Until that one is gone aswell. 

There's a moment in life where you can't recover anymore from another break up. And even if this person bugs you 60% of the time, well you still can't live without him. And even if he wakes you up everyday by sneezing right in your face, well, you love his sneezes more than anyone elses' kisses."

What?! it was a great scene!

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