Most people are ordinary.
They go to their ordinary jobs, they hang around with their ordinary friends, they live their ordinary lives and they die in the same ordinary fashion. Ordinary.
These people are not making any impact on the world and they do not leave their mark on it.
My struggle, as one who wanted to leave his mark on the world but also wanted to fit in was in a futile attempt to be able to feel ordinary.
I will probably never get that sensation.
So I hereby announce to the world that i'm giving up. I DECIDE not to be ordinary.
The other option is to be magnificent, but in order to be magnificent one must strive as hard as possible to achieve his goals.
From now on I will do just that. I suck at trying to be ordinary and happy, it doesn't work for me anymore, prhaps in never had worked for me despite numerous attempts to do just that.
I decide to be something more, I decide to strive as hard as possible to fulfill my goals, I decide to try and be magnificent. It's my choice and i CHOOSE to do so.
I will pass my bar exams in my unordinary way, i will study like a mad man in the coming 17 days and i will do what many consider to be impossible in such a short amount of time.
I choose to stop hiding behind excuses, I choose to stop placing obstacales of my own creation in my path, I choose to be all and everything that i can possibly be, I choose to live up to my potential and i choose to do so NOW.
I'm done playing around, I'm done with this horrible feeling of not living up to my potential, i'm done with being a child.
I still don't know what my future holds, I still don't know what path or roads i will take or if i will create my own path for others to follow, but I DO know that it's time to man up and ACT.
This is me going to remove the obstacle I have so unwisely created and starting to live my life as an adult.
X.
P.S. You can all respond in hebrew, for some reason it felt right to write an express myself in English today.