I was driving back home today and thought to myself that connecting to people via the Internet is so successful not in its ability to reach so many diverted people, but for one interpretation of the written word of another.

Everyone can interpret other's written pain and relate to it for a different reason.

I feel so alone, I can use some people that read this and relate in their own way

Does this happen to you? One of those why-am-I-so-lonely type of nights? And if it does,

do you question yourself? Do you blame yourself? Your qualities as a person?

I always say “I'm different than others” but every single person on this planet is different than the other. I often think maybe I judge too much, and won't comprise on the people I want close to me. You might say it's a good thing but let me tell you right there – there are limited people around you at a curtain point when you at a steady gig. And so, If it happens to be an opportunity to be close to someone that it's not that 100% amazing person that I can connect to and

have fun with I'm expecting, I just won't budge out of my fucking chair.

What would you call that? I can't be sad about my own decisions. And I guess this is what so bad about it. I have the awareness of what am I doing and yet I can't change it. I can't fake my feelings so after reaching that thought I'm just sitting in my own sorrow thinking this is my destiny – being mostly alone when my one or two amazing friends are not around.