The Moral Limit

Everyone has a set of goals in life, to make them worthy. Otherwise, the difference between life and death is negligible.

There are all sorts of goals, some more exclusive than the others, and some are mere vague road-blocks to keep us on track- such as being happy and successful… Those basic common desires are not necessarily main targets one would actively pursuit.

I was young of age the day I came to realize that whatever goal I'll set my mind to is irrelevant. Not because I couldn't think of any noble goal nor was it because of my incapability or lack of skill to achieve them; but because of the simple atheist-based realization, that one day I should die, and so all of my goals, thoughts and achievements are to fade along too.

Even if I were to be a renowned woman, the brightest and most talented inventor, to live a thousand years and travel across the cosmos- I would eventually die and be worth no more than the soil and the dirt of this earth. There would be no spirit nor mind to judge my achievements, for the king's crown can feel no honor and his sword should cry not for all the lives it took. A book can hold so much wisdom, but it would never think itself wise…

Rivers don't choose where to stream as do winds prefer not the East over the West. The dead are no different. They are no different than what they were before they possessed life- no thoughts, no pain, no joy nor any other feeling we can think of as we live.

I came to realize that the only thing I knew truly is that my life as any other was meaningless. My effect on the universe is nigh naught and even this is never to be known or remembered, for all livings die, and everything shall be forgotten.

One day, I came across a young man, older than I was. He was sharing my grief over this cruel understanding. There was no one else. A short period of time has come to pass, even in human-lifetime terms, when we found a whole community of people who knew. They knew what we did, but unlike us, they had hope. The hope that doesn't come in a religious form of mystical comforts of ongoing life of the spirit; but a hope of young ambitious men as well as women, scientists and researchers who believe that science might just offer the solution that we seek.

What needs to be done is very obvious; the problem lies in the how.  

Today there are many people aware of the fact that in order to have any kind of significance- life ought to be limitless.

Death must be conquered, I must live.

That was my first and most important goal to pursuit. Failing this, and no other goal or achievement is of any worth.

1# Life- living without limits:

Minor goals required for this:

-          Live long enough to live forever – I need to keep a healthy lifestyle because it might take a great deal of time until the aging process can be entirely stopped and I need to keep myself alive and in best shape until that happens.

-          Redo math's finals – Study math in 5units-high-school level in order to improve my math grades so I can more easily begin studying academically.

-           Specify Studying Subject – I need to research and choose the specific subjects I want to learn within my field of interest.

-          University – I need to choose the university in which I want to study, meet their terms and begin with my studies and research.

The young man, who has been the first to share my greatest of goals, has been sharing a lot more than that. We share everything- love, thoughts, feelings, adventure, hobbies and even hatred for similar things. Our mutual goal has been to share our lives. It wasn't as simple as it usually is with a loving couple. We have encountered countless obstacles through the years. Eventually, we've made it. Its great importance has made us set aside everything else and we now live happily ever after- only to fail if the 1^st and ultimate goal is unachieved.

2# Love – Sharing a life with my one true love, with all accompanied minor goals- completed.

In order to spice up my life and give them the color and joy they'd deserve if they were indeed endless and limitless, I've chosen some general goals in life to achieve as purposes. Some are already completed and some are not yet.

3# Singing – I've always loved singing and wanted to take it a few steps further, perform, improve and be known for doing it well.

Minor goals required for this:

-          Singing lessons – I need to find a singing teacher and go on a weekly basis so I can regain my vocal abilities and improve them to a maximal level.

-          Creating – I want to start writing and composing again.

-          Recording – I want to have my own songs recorded.

-          Audience – I want to perform, first on open stages, and later on even in organized paid shows.

-          CDs – I want to have CDs of my own songs, first to spread demos, and sell the final product.

4# Tattoos – As a very sentimental person, I've grown fond of inking my skin with my principles as a visible reminder of what I am, what I was and what I am to become. I have three tattoos at the moments and three more ideas left.

There are three minor goals I need to list here regarding the matter:

-          Artist – What I need to find now, is an artist skillful enough to carve the largest tattoo among the three perfectly.

-          Money – The large tattoo will require a great deal of money that I must earn.

-          Sensational Solution – I have dozens of touch-sensitive spots on my back, needless to say that while sensitive it shan't be possible to ink. I need to test it after smearing an anesthetic cream, or learn when exactly the times are when those are not so sensitive.

There are many other things I wish to do in life, such as books to read, places to travel, games to play, languages to learn etc`, but this post is meant to be a cornerstone of a castle I've long dreamt of building, yet never began; the achievements of goals I have always had and never found the courage to begin with; it is meant for me to organize my fantastic targets into stages that turn things into possible purposes, more clear and approachable.

There'd be no point in listing the goals I already have a very precise idea of how and when to achieve, because after building the walls, I've a lot of motivation to finish the roof….

All those goals require time, will, motivation, consistency and most of all priority. When there is priority, the others follow.

Priority is highly important, because otherwise, I would never begin. Those goals are not simple tasks and the beginning is always the hardest. Failing can cause a lot of wasted energy, frustration and even the neglecting of the quest. But then again, not leaving the comfort-zone is not an option, for it would get me nowhere. I will never have more time, and the conditions will never be better. It is now or never.

I will not settle on mediocre life, for I am not a mediocre person.