Well, I was warned. The atmosphere was right: my usual gin & tonic plus a free chaser, a sleazy pub at midnight, slightly drunk people feeling sexy. I was wearing a hint of leather, sitting on the bar while my love played pool. She comes to me, not really drunk yet. She says I'm so pretty. She thinks I'm sexy. She says "I want to touch you, you're so vulnerable". Vulnerable? I told her I used to think I'm a strong woman. She says I'm not experienced and cannot judge stuff I never tried. We order fries and she puts one in my mouth and considers it foreplay. I'm pretty amused from all this. It's all easier when you use a foreign language you know.
I'm surprised that a woman finds me attractive. I guess I'm still surprised when ANYONE finds me attractive, with my big nose and narrow lips and small boobs and everything. And with my extra 5 kilos that I hate. But she says she always wanted to touch me and she informed my man about it too.
She says she loves women, in all shapes and sizes. She thinks they're adorable. I say I love to look at a pretty woman, cause I enjoy beautiful things, but I'm not attracted to women. She says I know nothing, that nothing compares to women's love because we know better all the sensitive places. She wants to get me in bed!
She's thirty. She's crazy. She's married. Her husband is right near us. I ask her if she wouldn't mind a triplet. She said she loves to make love to a woman, he can watch. She says he can pleasure another woman and she'd love to watch. I just can't understand that. I'm a one man's woman.
I laugh. I'm not really drunk, but not really sober. I was never against it, but she's a really stubborn one as she asks me with pleading eyes why I don't want to kiss her. I tell her it's not I don't want to, that I just don't find the point in it. She asks, "And if I take your face in my hands and kiss you, would you resist?" I said no. I don't want to make her sad. I don't mind any of this. So she kisses me. And I kiss back. And then she asks me to kiss her. I do, in a soft hesitating way like I always like to start (and when you kiss a woman you know she's testing you) but she wants more. She grabs my ass and it's funny, really. She wants me to touch her breasts. She asks if I think she's beautiful, and I do, and she have nice breasts too. She asks if it makes me wet and I say no, it doesn't. But she's glowing and she's happy and pretty and I like it so we kiss some more.
My man comes to me, smiling a "she finally got you!" smile, and I kiss with him too. Right now I feel so liberated and free and it's all a bit blurry and I feel wanted by the whole world. I can see how the other guys eye us. They say it's beautiful. It makes me think and challenge myself with things I've never thought about before. If I only said yes she would take me downstairs and go down on me without asking to return the favor. But I'm not attracted to women. It still feels good though, that a woman wants you. It doesn't make me think of her in that way, but it makes me feel so sexy and my man can sense it. Just like in the "Rockstar" movie when they're drunk and adrenaline driven and everyone made love to everyone. I would never do that, but I think I can get the idea now.
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