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I was thinking for a while- who really knows me, and who really I know?
Then it came to my mind- who really can be called a "friend" for me?
Yesterday I realized- almost no one. Why? Because it doesn't matter what I say, everyone hears what he wants anyway. I'll be honest and say it: these people who were meant to be my "friends" at first, who are they really? How are friends supposed to be? Well, I think, for now on, that they are NO ONES. Two years ago, and nearly one year ago, I met some people who I thought can be real friends. But as the time passed, as time changed- so they are too. I've also changed, but I believe that not in my behavior (and that's because even my MOM doesn't think it's changed). As these people changed, their communication also changed, and as it changed, the way they use their society- changed. They started throwing jokes about others, including me and my friend, one of them... they started relying on the first thing they hear and even not listening to what comes later, and then even argue about things they don't know because they didn't hear them. If something was said wrong- they could beat you up for that... but even through it all, I still believed they are my friends.
But again- yesterday I found that I was wrong. Because if one thing happens more than one, two, three times, second happens more and more, third also- so it will happen forever. And these are things that I don't think they are supposed to be between friends. Or else, nowadays- friends are only for laughing on each other and using them?
I would say more if I could express it in writing and only for each single person, but I can't neither in English nor in Hebrew. And for those who ask themselves and going to ask me why the hell it is in English, well, here is the answer- it is easier for me saying all I mentioned above in English, psychically. Ow, and also for making you ask.
Thanks to everyone who really read this.
Thanks to Nilli for writing this for me.
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