Everyone has had a time in their life in which everything seemed to be going wrong, and he or she felt close to despair, I'm surely not different.
Not so long ago, actually, I can say that I was completely devastated. It was six months ago, and I got my heart crushed into a million tiny pieces, it hurts just thinking of it!
At first, I didn't know how to behave, I cried myself to sleep almost every night, but I never let myself break down in front of others. I have this stupid fear of showing weaknesses to people, now when I think of it, maybe I should have shared my situation with other people.
I can't tell you how many times I just wanted to die, or disappear from this world. I still have that old suicide letter.
Now, I'm OK, I've pulled myself through my hard times. And the most important thing is that I try to stay positive at all possible times!
I've learned a lot about myself, and now I feel broken... Sure, I have tons of friends and a lot of people care about me, that's why I'll actually never commit suicide, it's too egotistic in my eyes, and how can you prove yourself when you so clearly just avoid your problems.
I cantell you another thing, I'm so young and yet I feel so sure about it. I'm incapable in loving. I'm afraid of that feeling, afraid of getting hurt again. So I avoid love, I hurt a lot of people on the way and I feel very bad about it. But I'm simply broken, incapable to love
No idea, what's oh ever