I'm kind of scared of myself once again.

here comes the end of the year. the worst period of time ever.. and it's the time when my suffering comes to new heights.

I would really like to feel comfortable with myself in order to deal with this summer, with the next year..

and of cousre I'm putthing myself a new goal this summer...hopefully it would go even better rhan last year.

I want to smile and enjoy and be able to take part in everything that misses in my life.

I kinda in the hopes of becoming NORMAL sometimes. in the way I see it...

I want PERFECTION more than ever.

I dont know what Im going to do in the next few days... I hope that all this pressure won't affect me too much.

I really want to enjoy in this events but I don't know how I'm going to do this.

also I can't dress myself right now and look beautiful as I wish to look, and it's making my self esteem to just disappear.

also my grades aren't as good as they should be...as they were... and I'm kind of disappointing myself more than ever...

:\\\