Unknown Pleasures

1. Had Beer
2. Been drunk.
3. Touched a real gun.
4. Done drugs.
5. Write on a bathroom wall.
6. Read a George Orwell book.
7. Had sex or something like it
8. Got into a fist fight.
9. Used Twitter.
10. Listened to Lady Gaga.
11. Been in a car accident.
12. Gotten suspended.
13. Gotten expelled.
14. Got a computer virus.
15. Had a hand written diary.
16. Been allergic to something.
17. Had a dog
18. Had a cat.
19. Been pregnant.
20. Camped out.
21. Swam in the ocean.
22. Wore a bikini.
23. Meet someone online in person.
24. Made a survey.
25. Used ICQ.
26. Failed a class for the year.
27. Repeated a grade.
28. Went to summer school. 
29. Got the high honor roll.
30. Got the regular honor roll (A's and B's.)
31. Read an entire book.
32. Recorded my own music.
33. Had an xbox.
34. Listened to Rammstein.
35. Wore fishnets.
36. Bought skinny jeans.
37. Been in love.
38. Hated someone.
39. Been cheated on 
40. Cheated on someone
41. Did something sexual with someone of the same sex. 
42. Practiced Christianity.
43. Worn makeup.
44. Had a cavity.
45. Had surgery. 
46. Had my license.
47. Been to college.
48. Graduated high school.
49. Attempted suicide.
50. Worn colored contacts.
51. Painted my nails black.
52. Broken someone's heart.
53. Had my heart broken.
54. Cried for an hour straight.
55. Lost something very valuable.
56. Got separated from my parents as a kid.
57. Broken a bone. 
58. Gotten stung by a bee.
59. Eaten something bad/expired.
60. Threw up from being so drunk.
61. Had to put a pet to sleep.
62. Participated in a swinger's party.
63. Owned an ipod.
64. Owned an iphone.
65. Fell for a best friend.
66. Stole a friend's significant other.
67. Went far away from home for more than a week.
68. Moved out.
69. Ran away.
70. Teased my brother/sister.
71. Been to a hospital.
72. Had food poisoning.
73. Had a job.
74. Been fired.
75. Lied to a friend.
76. Lied to a family member.
77. Lied to a significant other.
78. Posted a video on Youtube.
79. Started a rumor about someone.
80. Deliberately failed a test.
81. ped out of school.
82. Fallen down the stairs.
83. Been skinny dipping.
84. Counted to a million.
85. Counted to a thousand.
86. Ate deer meat.
87. Ate duck meat.
88. Had fast food.
89. Been to Church.
90. Been to synagogue.
91. Been married.
92. Had a divorce.
93. Broken a window.
94. Hugged someone.
95. Texted someone today.
96. Received calls from your significant other today.
97. Threw something out of the window. 

כרגע 45 קילו.

ירדתי קילו וחצי בשבוע האחרון.

זה היה די קל בהתחשב שכל מה שהייתי צריכה זה לחשוב על איך החבר הכי טוב שלי, זה שאני מנשקת על השפתיים כמעט כל יום שנתיים האחרונות.

הבן אדם הכי קרוב אלי..

דווקא אתה החלטת פשוט לנפץ את החיים של לרסיסים.

יש לי בחילה מלהעביר את הרגעים האלה בראש שלי.

לחשוב על איך.. יכלת להיות בסיטואציה אינטימית עם משהיי אחרת, לשקר לי כל יום, להתכחש לקיום שלי לפנייה, לזרוק את כל מה שאני בשבילך.

ולא להרגיש טיפה של חרטה או קושי כשלא ידעתי.

איתמר. עשית דבר נוראי. נוראי.

כואב לי כל הזמן. כל רגע. וזה רק באשמתך.

פשוט חיסלת את השמחת חיים שלי.

לא מגיע לי לחיות ככה. במיוחד לא אחרי מה שעשית לי.

והחלק הכי גרוע זה שאני עדיין רוצה אותך בחיים שלי.