i wonder and i wonder but i don't get to any conclusion at all.
i can walk the streets for ever and i still won't find that thing that i am looking for.
i swear i have searched everywhere. it doesn't exist.
searching a dream, a faded idea, doesn't lead any fucking where.
the smell of my actions is smelled for miles but i have to idea why i'm doing that.
it is extreme to say that i lost control of my actions, but it is safe to say that i am not exactly in charge of them.
and maybe that's just my way of taking the blame off of my stupidities.
it's like i wanna go home, but i don't wanna go home, but i wanna go home.
and i'm trying to find someone here that will understand. but they all refuse. they'd rather stay in their shallow life.
it's okay by my. it was always okay by me.