beyond vision

It's not my first time

but it doesn't make it easier

I'm just not used to let go

Control freak, uncertainity fear

it has so many names

no matter what it's called,

I can barely let go,

even thousands of miles away.

What's wrong with me?

Yesterday, whisky night, 2 indians, finnish girl, a lesbian couple.

Whisky, food, wine, boardgames, classic night.

Everything's just right.

4 hours later, coming back home,

Can barely remember their names,

No phone numbers.

It's been 5 years, and it seems as if I reress to 15 years ago.

Got a new coat,

The same one I wanted 15 year ago.

Then I asked who would train me.

15 years later,

I got the training and the right coat,

should I switch career now?