חייה של ברבי לאן?...

it's been a year now .

i wish i could talk to him , and tell him how i feel .

i jest want to say that i'm not mad at you , little bit disappointed and sad . we have'nt talked this throw , we diden't made it clear after this cold tuesday .

that was the last time we had a normal conversation , since then we had only fragments of sentences accompanied by deep long looks that kill us every time all over again . i wish that i could tell him how much i miss him and his company at nights , i miss the warm hugs , the pleasant caresses and the sweet kisses .

everybody says you are a terrible person but i never saw that , you were nice to me , we laght togeter and had so much fun . sometimes i think it was all jest a scam but deep insaid i know that what we had , what ever that was , were real .

i needed to write this , who cars if you will never read this , it should been said .

love , nikki .