הרבה זמן עבר.
הרבה זמן לא כתבתי.
הרבה דברים השתנו and yet nothing has changed.
for some reason, this year hit me hard altough it has been seven years.
and yes, you can say life is good.
im living with a beautiful person who can stand my being and loves me and yes - she's beautiful looking as well.
and im taking care of myself and my future, and i learned to accept and love my father more than ever.
im sorry but she's gone..it hurts so much..
i feel like im walking around with this giant hole in my soul and life.
not everyone accept that part in my life..not everyone understands the meaning of it all.
my thoughts are going the same road again and again, i feel like i am useless.
feel like there is no meaning for my existance.
i hope somewhere down the road i will make a difference for someone.
im sitting here with tears that i need to hide cause it is not appropiate, im grown up now. i need to deal with things the way they are.
it's hard and everyone leaves at the end.
to all my friends, loved ones and family out there - i love you.hope you are ok inside and your soul is smiling.
Incubus - Aqueous Transmission
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6pnfQMr39c)
I'm floating down a river
Oars freed from their holds long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars
And feel my heart overflow
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Two weeks without my lover
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named emotion
Will I make it back to shore
Or drift into the unknown
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
I'm building an antenna
Transmissions will be sent when I am through
Maybe we could meet again further down the river
And share what we both discovered...
Then revel in the view
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
I'm floating down a river
I'm floating down a river
I'm floating down a river
I'm floating down a river
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