Sometimes, the thing I wish for, is just so out of reach, imaginary. Sometimes I don't understand myself. Why do I want something that's so untouchable. Why do I do this to myself? It's like I'm searching for disappointment. As if I'm just waiting to be let down. It's like, I can get whoever I want, if I just say it. I'm attractive and many guys want me. Except, ofcourse g. Sad, sad. It's not like there's another woman in his life. Or maybe there is and I just don't know it? I'm lost.

I got over hime already.

If he only didn't send this message on the chat.

And I don't really want him that much. It's just the concept of g. I want to go out with someone at his level. I wish to date someone who's as man as he is. Including himself.

It's like my all being is focused in my need and search for a relationship.

G G G

fuckit.

I should go and do other things to occupy my poor mind. Some rest to my running thoughts. A fresh HAPPY start for the week.

I hate the army. I hate my commanders. I want to be released already. 

I say goodbye, to you, and wish myself a haappy, successful, optimistic week.

bye bye