What a mistake.
I don't even know what's best- if he calls me and apologize, or if he disappears and I'll never hear from him again.
I guess I'd rather he calls. Say he's sorry and everything, and that he wants to see me again.
What a mistake!!!
I shouldn't have had sex with him. He asked me and I sais I'd rather we stopped and kept something for the next time. He kept saying throughout the night that he will want to see me again no matter what. So why insisting?!?!
Why being so S-T-U-P-I-D???
I guess it's because when I asked him about relationships he said it's difficult for a mariner. I know it is, so what?! It just sounded like- he doesn't want anyone right now. Too bad for.
Why all the bother, like?
The funniest fact is, we didn't a-c-t-u-a-l-l-y have sex. Like, he was so tired from the day he had, that he barely could get it up. We had some struggle there trying to getting it inside.
Why all the bother?!?!
And, you know, I simply can't help comparing him to Eli. I know it's not very smart, but, come on!
The guy would get up at 06:30, go to work, come back, go to the beach, go out in the evening, empty a bottle and half of GreyGoose, return home with me in 5am, and one hand of mine in his underwear and "voom!" like a rocket!
And then- the guy would fuck the shit out of me.
Tired? The scum-bag could have at least get up to say goodbye, and not being such a prick. Screw him.
When he's called in the middle of the night he's very capable of getting up.
I know it's my bad, the I shouldn't have slept with him. Technically I didn't. Oh Jesus. What a mistake.
And the saddest part of all that- He's a guy-to-bring-home. Polish, tall, a marine officer. What could be better than this? And I really liked the guy- He is very sexy.
But if he fucks regularly the way he did last night- Oh boy.
But it's O.K I guess. I'm 20 years old. Exactly the age to make such mistakes, and I'm whole with everything I did.
I learned, and after all- Isn't it what I asked for?
Have a terrific weekend, have allot of fun! (and sex) and remember- I finally did (or half-did) a marine-officer! Woohoo!!
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