My heart is like, jumping in its place. I'm suddenly excited and jumpy. I sing, I smile. Even if a second before I was tired or down. It's crazy. He's not even my type. I'm not even sure that we fit, if we were to try anything romantic. I wish.

I'v waited so long for this feeling. In my heart. I'v waited for so long to FEEL, something. Meanwhile I would let myself get disappointed from bastards that could not appreciate me. I would make myself a complete pathetic girl, to make the rejection a sure thing. Sadness was the closest feeling to what I tried to feel.

I REALLY REALLY want to make this come true. This would complete my happiness puzzle. I really want him. But not just HIM. It's not only sexual. I really want to get to know him. To be friends with him. To get to know him, to talk to him. I'm already inlove with him . I WISHHH he feels the same about me. 

And also, I want a real relationship. Something for real. Serious one. I think I deserve this after all this time, all the disappointments. I believe I deserve it. Just to make me happy. It's like I'm praying. It's something that I want soooo bad.

I just can't believe I met a person who makes my heart go crazy like this. It doesn't usually happen.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98WtmW-lfeE&ob=av3el

wow.

Hold your fingers for me, will ya?