I wonder what was that thing that made me love you so deeply

im affraid of getting hurt..
thats why i act like "i dnt care"
or "i dnt give a fuck"
as a matter of fact i do give a fuck..alot..

but most of the time u get my hopes  down..
i expect too much in genral..
and most of the times it dont turn out the way i expected to

and..as much as i deny it and pretend that my emotion's are 'turned off'
i do get hurt..so easly..and alot.
the fact that i dont show it..doesnt mean that im not

my heart got frozen, in this couple of months..i used to get exited about evry shit u do..

about evry feelin u made me feel...
i became sort of a 'mean' person
yeah..u said it urself..u have noticed.

"u became a monster! i want the old you again"

u made me like this..its your fault..honey.

meeh..let it be

"happy.."