Those days, when you feel on survival mode. You want to do good things, you want to make things better.
But you just can't manage to.
Survive. Go through that day, make it through another. You can't put your resources into things that aren't mendatory.
You really want to care for things, but caring takes too much energy. So you just stop.
You lose all you cared for and nothing seems meaningful because at that point you don't even want anything.
just keep on going, because that's what you are supposed to do. Doing anything else also takes too much energy.
One day it must end. You will stop surviving and maybe you will actually start living because life isn't about survivng anymore. It's about comfort, fun, love, doing the things that make you happy. At least that's what they make you think while you go on day by day trying to make all those things possible and vanishing inside your depressing routine.