This the time to say, really good by to you and today I finally did that. When you call today, for help with your laptop, I just snaped. You made your choice, god damn it. Why do you need me, ah? No problem to help, but I just can get in to this. I want to stop thinking about what we had. I started my new life, without you. I don't need this calls.
Maybe I did a mistake when I called you few days ago for saying happy birthday. But that's a birthday, we call to say happy birthday to people, espacially to those we care or cared once. This doesn't give you the right to use me! Cannot help you, cannot answer you, cannot deal with myself when it related to you. I can't say "fuck off". And it's to hard to write this down, too.
Just so you know, I not thinking of you for a long time. But when this phone call begins, I just can't stand them. You call like nothing happent. But for few months, my world was facking over. We became just friends, just fucking friends! And all I could just to move aside, just to stand and watch, like you slowly walk away. So maybe for you is no big deal, but for me... it's a huge deal.
It took some time to move on with my life, without your help, and I don't want to see myself felling like this again. You just remind how painful that was for me. All my memories about you are full of pain and I don't want to look back to this chapter, again and again.
So I say, farewell to you my dear, once again wish you love and happiness. But without me, you can forget me. I'm moving on. I hope, there's no more pain for me. Farewell...
Max
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