Ma vie au Canada
its the first time i'm actually writing i decided to open this blog coz i feel that if i won't get out everything i feel inside i'll go crazy
i'm already lets say but in a good way O.O lol
i'm here in Canada 8 month sometimes i really miss my old life
but i know here i will be more happy and here its my new home so i must live with it
in 16 days school is over we have 100000 of examens or more like we will and im freaking out coz
those examens will decide if i gonna go to regular next year they said i will but still as always everything
can change so yeah i got to study hard and give everthing i have for it
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i'm already sick something about one week last weekend i didnt go anywhere coz of it
it suck's as hell well what can i do at least a good thing happen to my firend
she found the one for her i hope it will hold on longer than me
few things about her
i know her just 8 month and she is like family for me one of the most important pple to me
she's like a sister to me...and i really love her
i hope our friendship will keep holding on long long time
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now i'm single and i think for a long time i had a few options
to relationships but i just don't want to...coz i don't love anyone of them
i just dont feel like having one more 2 weeks relationship
i'm tired of it...of changing my mind every few seconds like i'm used to
or to fall inlove with every boy i see coz its nothing serious just a stupid crush
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i'll try to wait for the right one to come
i'm not like those girls who says aww where is my lil prince
coz he doesnt existe or maybe i just didn't found him yet idn
we will see i just dont belive that there is a boy who can really love
you for long time without cheating
i don't need any handsome prince or the perfect guy
with muscles that all the girls dream of no it's just some bullshit
yes the out is important to idn why but for me it had been the most important
always and i hate it i wanna change so fuckin much
what i'm looking for is a guy that will be there for me when i need him
the most that will always know how to make me happy and smile
and simply love me
maybe i wish for to much things
and its impossible who knows we will see
i just don't want that guy that calls you and says where are you
that doesn't even says hello to you the one that doesn't
hang out with you enough the one that wont ever really talk to you
face to face like it supposed to be in relationships
coz a relationship like this won't hold more than one month
the maximum and it already happened to me
so yea...i know
i really don't know what i feel now
i'm so so so confused and
like my heart is empty or something
idn if what i feel is love or hate
or just nothing at all
or maybe it's love just now its not the
same feeling as before it's a
different sort of love like for someone that
is important for you not like
man loves a woman
one thing i know time will show but til than i know
i don't want any relationships i don't really have time and
simply i'm not ready just if something really special will happen
but i don't think it will so i'm safe
i'll focus on living my life
being with my family
and spending time with my friends
and the rest we will see
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i love this pic so much it describes exactly what i feel right now
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