הבלוג של הדוד הבלונדיני

It has been that long.

Actually, technically we've known each other forever.

But now I'm wondering what happened to us.

To be totally honest. I never thought we will be here right now.

You need to be here. You need to be here with me.

Damn, I wish you were here.

It feels like I'm losing myself. (Yeah I know it happened a long long time ago, but it happened again and apparently again)

I guess I should have known that eventually I will stay here by myself, crawling in the dark.

And now I'm one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break.

Maybe I should just get down with the sickness.

I think I've forgotten.

Who the hell am I?

I remember when I finally found you I thought to myself I found somewhere I belong.

Maybe I was wrong?

I guess now I'm hitting the floor, once again.

But as we all know, it's easier to run.

I just wanna cry. But I have blood in my eyes.

But then again I guess I deserve all of this for what I've done.

I remember the first time I saw your smile and it was like one of those things, The little things that give you away.

But now I'm torn apart in pieces.

Sometimes it feels like I'm just the messenger. I always wanted to think I'm more of that. But now I'm really not sure of that anymore. Actually I'm not sure of anything anymore.

Anyway, we all know what happens to the messenger eventually.

I would really like to say I'm unaffected. But we all know that is such a lie.

But I'm waiting for you for so long, and you're never there.

And it's funny because I thought you're always going to be there. Because you were supposed to be my partner.

I guess I was wrong.

I remember when this last episode has begun I thought to myself well at least I'm moving forward. Boy was I wrong. Apparently I was stuck in this shit hole all along.

So please, don't tell me anything. Because I think now I'm starting to see. Now I know that truth.

You're just a dimmed memory from my past. Yeah right. You would like that wouldn't you? But everybody know you're so much more than a memory. You're everything to me and nothing will ever replace you.

I really wanted you to save me from myself. But I guess that ain't gonna happen.

So maybe someday, somehow will be together.

But until then I guess I'll turn around and pick up the pieces.