I guess you were right and life becomes easier to live as time goes by but it really depends on the day. Most of the time I'm fine (or at least I'm convincing myself it's not that bad) but you know me well enough to know it's just my way of ignoring the things I shouldn't ignore until it gets to a point where I just can't push it anymore and then I break down. That's what happens lately, some days I'm ok, and I'm actually happy when I speak to him but then on other days I just cry for hours just cuz I miss him too much.

The hardest thing about it is that unless someone had been through the same situation, people can't realy understand how it feels like and it doesn't matter how much you explain it to them, so I can't really speak to my friends here cuz most of the time they just go with "you'll see him again soon, don't worry" and it's pretty much pointless trying to tell them that it's not as easy as it sounds. But hey, that's what you're here for my whining buddy!  When I read this email now, it sounds exactly like the conversation we had when you were in Israel. Dammit! Why can't we go back there?!

וזה באמת נשמע כמו השיחה שהיתה לנו לפני כמה שבועות...

אוף אני גם מתגעגעת אליה!!! 

דמט החיים קשים כשכל החברים מפוזרים ביבשות שונות!