Adore me as you adore yourself.

Last night was the first time I was crying since I was on the airplane. flight from cape town is abording now.

I hided it.. didnt want you to see me, you know how I am and introduction of feelings..

The world can collapse on my face when it feels Im too happy. I was just laying in my bed, could almost feel your arm above me my eyes were open until the sun was rising and the doves above the window herald about the adjacent morning. 

sometimes you get to a point in you life that theres no turning back, youve open your heart to wide, and too profound. when you breathe, you cant smell and when you close your eyes vaticinating all the things you dont want too see.

Its love they say.

should I let go and never look back? or should I fight with my teeth for the one whom I dream about. Is this the future? or a wrecked present of a devastated past?

"But baby can't you see There's nothing else for me to do I'm hopelessly devoted to you"

Olivia n. John

"I'm starting to get the feeling that something just does not matter, as if all the drugs - Lithium, Prozac and Edzirl, the pill I take to sleep all at once felt the strength to fight what's wrong with me initially. I feel like a defective model, I went down the assembly line like so fucked up in my parents had to bring me back for repairs before the certificate expired warranty. Except it was so long ago.

I'm beginning to think that there is no real cure for depression, that happiness is a battle going on, and I wonder if it's not a battle in store for me all my life even if it's worth. I'm beginning to feel that I can not continue to wear this mask, afraid they begin to see me under it. I wish I knew what was wrong. My dreams are stricken paralyzing pollution. I want to leave that life on drugs"

E. W