From a distance, you never know it's my heart and love you take,
And that I adore all of you and watch every move you make.
So, it'll stay like this til I get the courage to say,
Just how I feel and hope you become mine that day.
א11...שנים לפח, הכאב כל גדול כל כך
רם הישן רשמית הוא עבר, לא מאמין שמשהו בי נשאר
למה לא קודם למה אני מפגר,
ורק עכשיו כשאני לגמרי לבד, עכשיו אני חוזר
את היית החלום, אבל מזמן הפסקתי לישון
את היית הגביע, אבל לא הלכתי בשביל הנכון
שנתיים וחצי שעכשיו אותך אני כבר לא מכיר,
כל החברים הכי טובים, שום דבר שיזכיר
רק כאב גדול והרגשה של החמצה,
שהעברתי את השנים הכי יפות בלי אהבה
זה כל מה שהייתי צריך, מקום קטן לשאוב ממנו כוח
שאני יוכל להילחם ואף פעם לא לברוח
כי וויתרתי על כל כך הרבה בשביל לרוץ אל החלום
אבל בלי החברים זה לא אותו מקום
אין סיבה לנצח אין סיבה להילחם
כל מה שנשאר זה בין הצללים להיעלם
אף אחד לא מכיר אף אחד לא יודע
שמישהו עומד להצטרף לנאור, וזה רק עניין של רגע...9
its no allways rainbows and butterflies
its comprmise to moves us along...9
you are my fire, the one, desire
its me in the corner, its me in the spotlight loosing my relligion
i cant even sleep i cant even talk, i dont know what to do now that you walked.
you were everything that ever meant to me, everything i ever wanted.
i hope that you can ear me though you are living in a nother world, throwing shadow up on us..9
in your eyes i could drown and still survive
in youre eyes i can see how to live my life
but if only i knew the chances where few
maybe i, would still be with you..9
i can fall a sleep so lets talk, its time to let the word just walk
hey, im sorry if i hurt you.. it wasn't the way i meant to come up
you were so sweet in that time when i quit a class and talked to you in zoomi
and it was nice for me to talk to you , you gave me a direction to forget all the bad feelings i felt... for breaking up with vasi that i wasn't really after her yet,... and the changes in my foot ball.. and i saw youre half smile and i really wanted to make it a full one and therefore i didnt want do dissapoint you and delay our meating to another time even though i was really broken that day...
day after tom died... when i everytime i was alone i couldn't stop crying... thinking how fucked up this world is... when tom that loved life so much.. and enjoyed every second of them even with his problems... his life where taken from him.. and me... that hated life so much.. that every couple of days i prayed i would die and would be free from the pain... and i... im still alive... its just not fair..
day dreaming on how the people i love would feel if i was instead of him... if i wouldv'e died that day...
if anyone would of shed a tear.. what will be my last words.. how would the love of my love would feel... if she will even care... and cried everytime that i thought of what my family would feel cause them are not in the calculation of the meaning of life for me... and i know they will be sad if i'll be gone.. and that's why im still here..9
now back to you.. i didnt want to dissappoint you though it was really hard for me..
and also when you told me that you are talking to me from nitzan house i, as i usually stupadly do... thought on helping my friend even if it comes on the expense of me... and i knew that im good on one on one but ashamed next to other people.. but still i jump on the opurtunnity even if it was appropriate... and afford to change it to a double date in my house instead of unest one on one.. intimet talk with you.. to really get to know you,, and put a smile on your face...
and from here its the part that i dont have enough words to tell you how sorry i am.. iv'e been such a idiot that day.. and i know that no exuces will make up for it.. even though i have a good one... so i just want you know to know that it all because i cared about you to much...and wanted to make you happy even though i was broken......1
first of all you and nitzan where freezing.. and because i was in a diffrent world, i didnt thought clearly.. i huged you cause i didnt want to to feel cold... and you took its as an appertonuitty for me to touch you... like hugging its what will make me happy... i didnt want you to feel cold but i didnt even thought on getting you something warm to put on... once again,, like i cared,,,, anyway the thing i like about you the most is your beautifull eyes so it wouldn metter to me even if you put on ten cauts... so that's 1!..
second of all... i want to make clear why i was such an idiot... i was so ashamed from ophir and nitzan.. expecially ophir... its a problem i allways had... in four eyes i have fun.. i feel free to let my fealling shown.. but when its with a big crowd i usually just shut up.. i grow up a little since then.. but it was a big problem.. so its was really hard for me to talk to you about the important stuff.. on you.. on us.. or anything that i wanted to know,, cause for me it wasn't comfortable in that crowd.... and also i felt really bad for nitzan..hhh.. poor girl what i done to her.. because i was so off i even didnt take you a side to talk to lett her and ophir so my ''mech" will work.... and she was freezing and i didnt felt comfortable to talk and be focus on you while she's in a house she's never been in... in like a double date.... kitzer... the double date idea was really stupid..
now this was the little things... most of all...the reason it all turn up so wrong...is that...
i wanted to make you happy... thats why i still met with you..
but i was so broken.. so even though i was happy youre there... all i wanted to do is just cry... i couldn't stop the pain.... so i laught like an idiot... cause I knew.. that if i won't laugh i would cry... and the last thing i wanted
is that you will be sad because of me... i didnt want your smile to fade because of me.... so i pretend like everything is okay... but it didnt really worked so i came out like a real clown and a idiot.. i trully want to apologize to you for that... i really screwed up!... but i need you to know...
that its not who i am!... im not the idiot you hope i will be... ask Shani if you want.. i wonder if that what she will say about me.. and she got a little glimps of me.. you got less then my shadow on that day...
so i just wanted to tell you im sorry.. im sorry that i cared to much and tried to be something else then my self
"if you wouldn't talk to me because you dont want to, its just fine... im the first one who will understand you..
but if it because i was afraid to tell you..hide my feallings... and messed everything in a pretty impressive way in one day... then its not okay at all..!
cause i dont want you to feel hurt from me..
so its time for me to stop being afraid...
and i will be happy to talk to you sometime to explain everything... cause from some reason im the only one who sees it... your beautifull eyes, your cute crazy laugh, you big smile, youre "TIK" with the hair... the way you friends feels for you...
maybe im just an idiot.. but i want you to know who i am
before are ways will seperate...
Ram
היי איזה שטויות את גורמת לי לעשות
אני יוצא יותצר אידיוט כל הודעה שאני שולח לך
אבל זה משגע אותי, העיניים היפותצ שלך זה בטח לא מה שגורם לי לזה, אבל איזה שטויות, מסכנה מירי היימן
people who will remain forever, time take our mind to a different place, but i want all of them to remain inside my heart
Hapoel haifa
אליעד - מטולטל שיער חום, בלם טוב כזה
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רז זבולון!!!!!!!!!1 הודי מספר 1 בארץ, הפקרתי אותו, חבר טוב
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בן מלול
מושיקו פלוטקה
לב השוער- גיבוש מטכל
אור השוער
דין
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אמיתי בן זקן!!!!1 חבר טוב, גם נעלמתי
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