I know I have to get over this but I just can't! Every time I feel like I'm stronger, someone brings me down.

Only by looking at their weird faces, I'm getting depressed. I know it seems like I'm a little girl but it's not like that at all! I just don't like being here! Why do I have so much bad luck??? I wish I could change and be a better person. I wish I could forget ALL the things I've seen my entire life! Start from ZERO! Start from nothing… I feel like I have no point or goal or something to reach to in my life. I feel like I'm a waste in this life. I'm not helping anybody not even to myself. It feels like I'm an empty space. I don't want to be here. I'm tired. I'm tired of life. I don't know how to have fun; I don't know how to become a better person… I know so much but it worthless since I don't have anyone to share this knowledge. Even when I tell them, they're not interesting to hear what I have to say. They are always trying to put me on their way and to make me forget my way. They never let me decide on my own. They never let me decide what's good for me. It's more than just the basic part of this. I don't trust anyone here. Not just in this place but every place I go to. I know it's impossible but it's like that. That is something I can't change and at this moment I don't thing I want to change it… After all, I'm… Who am I? Where am I? What do I have to do here?

I AM NOTHING I AM NOWHERE I HAVE NOTHING TO DO HERE…

End of story. End of everything. End of me. I'm done.