I keep seeing this moment in front of my eyes, day after day after day. I keep seeing the Bad Wold, dreaming of the Bad Wolf, quoting the Bad Wolf. I keep seeing these scenes, these minutes, in front of my eyes, hearing them playing inside my mind, and knowing there's nothing I can do. Not to change it; to become it. 

There is so much evil in this world. Some of it is mankind, some is not. Some is natural and some is not. Most of it should never exist, but a tiny bit must. It is important for the world to go on, to revolve, but some of it shouldn't have been and shouldn't continue to be. 

I see living creatures going through things every day. I saw a sister dealing with death. I saw a friend dealing with sickness. Just now, I saw a cat dying in the street because of the heat. I saw sickness, and death, and poverty; saw people hurting each other, lying to each other, killing each other. I saw all that is evil in this world, and I wish I could run away from this, but this cannot happen, not as long as we are human. 

But like Rose, like the Doctor, like the Time Vortex, I also see everything that can be. I can see the fourth great human empire. I can see humans flying through the stars. I can see happiness, health, friendships and complete families. There will never be a perfect world in the common meaning of perfect, but the perfect world, the world that is actually perfect, with humans living in peace, defended and happy with their lives, that can be. A world where everybody get what they deserve and everything is operating smoothly, for the most part. Not the world of Multivak, not the world before the Fourth Human Empire (DW 107), but a real world with real people, all thinking for themselves. 

And like Rose and the Doctor and the Heart of the TARDIS, all I wish is I could change that. Clasp my hands together and make everything that is bad go away. Bring the street animals back to live. Bring peace. Kill the ones worthy of death and revive those who died too soon. Dispose of sicknesses and accidents. Leave pain and hurt, because no world can exist without them, but bring more good than anyone can ever imagine. 

But all I can see now is that cat from the street, and I can't help but wonder, where do I get a TARDIS? Where do I get Doctor-like abilities and Time Vortex to look into? When can I change all that requires change?

I only wish... I could be the Bad Wolf. Even if I'd die. I'd leave the Doctor to look after Earth the way he's done for centuries. But to just be the Bad Wolf for a day, to change all the wrongs... That would've been fantastic.

Ann.