I think yesterday may have been the second best day of my life.

We've had a lot of Michael yesterday. Me, specifically. I've had a lot of thinking, a bit of crying, a hell of a lot of laughing and surprisingly being myself entirely. It's amazing, really, but that's the first time in my life I felt so... accepted and calm within a large group of people. I mean, I can't even do family events because I hate the amount of people there, and it's nowhere near what we've had here.

Um, we've also had Teryl. Teryl... she's just the loveliest. She just is. She recognized us when we came to do the photo ops, and later during her panel she called people onstage and recognized their names and everything. She was so kind and just talked and made us all laugh. She really was the sweetest. She and Jason probably get The Sweetest title of this convention.

And then... we've had Michael. He did autographs for about 3.5 hours, meeting hundreds of people and signing hundreds of things. I was amazed to see just how awake he was, considering he flew in the day before. I actually had two autograph sessions with him, but I'm not going to say why. That... that's something only mom, myself, Michael and Mr. G will know.

But yeah, we walked up to him the first time and he was so nice. He asked how I was and I said great and asked how he was ("excellent") and how his flight was ("shorter than usual, because I was coming from Toronto"). He tweeted they had Saving Hope on the plane, so I said I saw he watched it (jokingly). He said he didn't watch it, because he already saw everything, but... Yeah. I asked him my question (related to the second autograph session) and he gave me a really deep, serious answer, and I was totally mind-blown. I had absolutely no idea how to feel about this. I was hoping it'd be a serious answer, but I didn't think it's be that serious and deep. Trying to understand what just happened, we took a walk outside and talked a bit about that... and then we got back and I decided I need another autograph, so we got it and then I ended up crying in a hidden place in the lobby. But it was good crying. <3

Um, we went out to McDonald's, which is about five meters from the hotel, and had proper lunch. Just as we were leaving, we ran into a friend I made in this convention, so mom got back to the hotel and I stayed with her. We had such a good time. It's amazing, but in those two days in which we knew each other I feel like I made a really good friend - and interestingly, so did she. The power of conventions, I guess.

After that we headed to Michael's panel. It was as hilarious as ever ("aren't you all giggly today"), and his comments and expressions were just the funniest things ever. It's not really surprising, considering that usually what happens with him, but... (the things we're all taking from the weekend- ascension, alien chicks and Megasnake!)

Anyway, I found the courage to ask him a question. While in line we were all cracking up, so it took me a few seconds to gather myself to ask my question, and in those seconds he was just looking at me... and it was perfect.

I asked him about the ghost aspect of the show - I said it feels as though it was really present in the beginning and as time goes by it's slowly disappearing. I asked him what he thought about it and how it's going to look in the future. He went, "this is a complicated question. Not because I don't have an answer, because the answer is complicated." And I don't believe I said that, but I went, "Go for it", which got people behind me laughing.

He said that the writers sort of feel that the ghost aspect is so much more interesting than the love/hospital stories, and they're afraid that if they go that way, no one would want to watch those two kinds of stories anymore. He asked what it is that I'm looking for, and I said I want some exploration of those abilities, so he asked what kind of exploration, and I said that for example, why Charlie can actually see those ghosts. He said that he was having the same argument with the writers multiple times, because "if you could all of a sudden see ghosts, what would be the first thing you'd do? Ask how you can do it", but the writers were afraid it'd be too interesting and they'd lose the other stories in the process, so... But yeah, he was having the same arguments. He then said that he doesn't write the show, he just acts in it, and I went, "Maybe you should write it", and the audience was all cheering insanely. He did one of his faces and said that after his previous writing experience (he told us about it earlier in the panel)... no. But that's basically it. He also said they're only in episode 7 now, so he doesn't really know how it'll look in the future.

Wow.

After the panel we did the photo ops. He actually RECOGNIZED me when I walked to him, which was totally awesome. We had a photo and I went, "what amazes me is that you can still see" (they're doing them really close, with strong flash), and he grinned and went, "who said that?" and I started laughing.

Basically that was it. After the photo I was a bit disappointed I didn't get a hug, because I love his hugs, but then later that day in our room I was sort of remembering that the girls he usually hugged were either young ones or hardcore fangirls, and, well, quite frankly... I'm neither now. I was thinking maybe he was seeing an adult in me, and mom said it's quite possible, as both responses I got from him were deep and serious (which isn't that obvious with Michael...). So yeah, I dunno, I guess I'm just... amazed.

I woke up this morning and it was really empty around here. Everybody's leaving... We ran into Gary Jones again by Starbucks, but that's basically it. I sort of feel the convention blues beginning... Yeah, it's the first time I'm here after people are leaving, and it's just the saddest feeling ever.

On the other hand, this weekend has been literally the most amazing experience ever. I have never felt this accepted by people (not specific ones in a one-on-one interaction). I have never randomly started conversations with people, or talked to my biggest stars totally casually and calmly, and I have never done a lot of other things I did this weekend. The amount of people I met here... is mind-blowing.

On the other hand, I do feel a bit... disconnected. Everybody is sort of fangirling around me, and I just... don't quite feel it anymore. But I guess that's the reason I managed to talk to the actors I love like that, so... It made me question who I am a bit, but I think I'll let it sink a bit before I'll think about it. Like my Mr. G once said: sometimes you just need to feel and not think at all.

Proper con report (qs and as, talking to people, meeting people, interacting with actors etc) will come as soon as I get back home. Today we'll take the time to tour Chicago a bit more. Fun!